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people should stop making up stores and telling everyone they know... it's just makes me look like an ass (sorry jon/kallen).. they aren't engaged, you fucks!

hey look, i'm updating my LJ.. ha! ..."LJ"

oh yeah, listen to more Kiss It Goodbye.. you'll be a better person.

hey.there.girls.i'm.a.cunt


party at my place saturday? maybe.

too much freelance stuff to do? yes.

fall line still alive? at the moment.

girls? always there.. but who cares anymore.


so, i'm getting one of my drums kits refinished.. i need ideas on colors and/or patterns.. someone help me out. and no, i will not paint a big penis on my bass drum... why, you ask? becuase i can't paint balls on my kit since i don't play 2 toms.. see, i already thought about it...

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i'm socially retarded when it comes to women. there are a few girls I'd like to hang out with more, but.. yeah, it won't happen...

my car: window smashed (now fixed), electricity failing.

work: being overloaded... not reallly.. just a lot to do.

mike walls: wears glasses.

i work too much.. i also think about meeting a rad chick too much. although, seeing how i'm socially retarded, it probably won't happen anytime soon..

fall line needs a new singer.. weak.

she's not my type...

Now I know why I stopped talking to her in the first place...

While in Florida, I'd look around and I was alwas reminded of her. So, I decided to call her and tell her I was sorry for acting like a jerk, the last time we talked. I also wanted to see how she was doing.. if she was OK.

She calls back..

"What did you call for" (In a "are you just trying to start shit?" kind of voice).. I asked the usual questions (how are you? do you have a boyfriend? how is he? how's the family? etc..) The WHOLE time being very genuine and nice.. I could careless about who she's dating.. she was just being a bitch.. like "I have a job I like, a boyfriend I love... my life is better than yours"

Everyone says I an be mean or at least I look mean.. see what happens when I try to do something nice? I's rather be a cold person.

Fuck her, fuck working today, fuck everything.. i'm through

I had to put my dog, Chloe, down yesterday. sadness.

on the other hand.. my new job is keeping my mind occupied. for those who did not know, I'm working for Mission Media.. which is awesome. www.missionmedia.net

So yeah.. I've been busy..

1:: Fall Line's full length is about half way finished. 9 tracks.. good times... We're "dorking out" on a couple of the tracks.. mainly one track.. rainsticks, samples, weird noises.. colin and i have been listening to way too much NIN lately... I have no idea what I'm going to do for the album art though. Obviously, it'll be based of the albums title.. but, that's kinda hard.. "Seiran" is going to be the name of the full length (said like: "Sair" (like "hair" but with an S) then "en") Sair-en...... ANYWAY.. I'm not telling what it means.. look it up.. oh, it is a real word.. but, it's japanese.. so, good luck.

2:: I start my internship at Mission Media tomorrow (http://www.missionmedia.net). I'm kinda nervous.. I have a feeling I'm going to find out how good or how bad I am in certain areas of media design.. I've heard rumors of what projects I'll be working on (or what clients I'll be helping with) and it'll be pretty intense.

3:: Despite what many think, I am single (Rachael.. "Where's your girlfriend?). I had to have a shitty/awkward conversation the other night.. and I hope her the best and I can't say I didn't see that coming.. all I can say is, when/if you get the slightest thought that things aren't working out... be the bad guy and get out of there...
...that's just coming from a friend.

4:: I think that's it. Really, I'm just tired and waiting for luandry to finish to I can go to bed.. Oh.. go to the Ottobar June 29th.. It's the Emerald Moon Records Showcase show.. We're playing second, so get there in the beginning, hang out, watch us, and hang out some more.. and please don't ask what time we go on.. just go.. we go on early.. there you go.. the shows @ 8 so get there at 8.. I you get there in time to see us then leave, how am I going to hang out with you? douche..

Just some mindless thoughts...

:: Mike Walls and Thejus.. definitely 2 very good friends. Not too often someone meets 2 very grounded dudes with big hearts... I enjoy talking with Mike while killing time at school... the 3 of us should hang out more...

:: Garden State - Awesome movie.
:: Sam reminds me VERY much of someone I know.

:: The show this past Sunday was so amazing. It may sound very stupid, but I got to play with bands that are pretty much responsible for me being a musician.

:: I'm pretty bumbed out about Isaac being broken.

:: Trying to read what EXACTLY girls want OR are trying to hint to is very very hard. All I can say to you is be VERY upfront with me. I won't play games and if I don't know what you want, you'll be passed by... not on purpose, I just won't take the time to sit - think - and wonder what I'm "supposed to do." I'm too old for that..

:: I got a call from Maryland Drum yesterday. My new drums got out of the paintshop yesterday and I should have the new kit sometime in the next week. What's the kit going to look like? It's going to be Royal Blue Satin with Natural Satin bass drum hoops (http://www.marylanddrum.com/woodsamples.html). If you go to the site, it's the top-right hand corner blue.. just imagine that color blue with non-painted wood rings around the bass drum. Sigh, I can't fucking wait. Also, my new Snare is almost finished. I might evn have that in the next day or so. I'm so pumped. Getting custom gear that I don't have to pay for is incredible. The only downside, I'll have beautiful drums, but no stands to hold them up. So, I've got to scrounge up some dough to buy stands and hard cases.. this is kit will mostly likely be strickly a studio kit, but I still want to get hard cases to store 'em in. But, then again, the drums are smaller sizes than the "red kit" (the one i play now) and it might be easier to take the smaller drums on the road... ramble ramble.. i need more drum dorks as friends.. too many of you use electricity.

:: Steve Madden shoes...
:: Once hated, now loved...

:: Saturday's show.... eh... i don't think we were "I miss my girlfreind from 6th grade" or "Linkin Park" enough...

:: Last night's show..... fucking amazing.... hurting... very very much right now

:: Stolen from Kyle:

1. What School did you attend?
Loyola

2. What year was it?
1997-2001

3. What were your favorite band(s) or artist(s)?
Torn Apart, Cave In, Turmoil, Dillinger Escape Plan, Disembodied, Deadguy, Snapcase, Incubus, 311, Portishead, Tribe Called Quest...sooo many..

4. What was your favorite outfit?
baggy khaki's and a blue button down w/ gold tie (dress code + i was stylen)

5. What was up with your hair?
bleached blonde or dyed black... ooohhhh yeah... fucken slick

6. Who was your best friend(s)?
brendan donohue, tony cola, dave beck, kev mcque

7. What did you do after school?
soccer practice... race cars... hang out at someone's house...

8. Where did you work?
Donna's Coffee Bar.. Dishwasher, prep cook, bar tender....

9. Did you take the bus?
no way dude.. i had a kewl car..

10. Who did you have a crush on?
ummm... hmm.. my girlfriends best friend... stephanie and this other girl kelly..

11. Did you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?
yup.. we dated for 6 years.... although, things didn't get bad until after high school, if i went back, i wouldn't have dated anyone... at least not for THAT long..

12. Did you fight with your parents?
not very often

13. Did you ever get detention?
once... i only got caught once...

14. Favorite Subject?
History of Art (the teacher let us sleep in the theatre during slide shows.. which was everyday)

16. Who did you have a CELEBRITY crush on?
not that i can remember

17. Did you smoke cigarettes?
nope.. well.. no.. i didn't really start till after high school.. i played soccer all year around.. so, it was a bad idea...

18. Did you lug all of your books around in your backpack all day?
fuck no.. i had a notebook that came around with me all day.. i think my books stayed in my locker all year.. only came out the day before a test..

19. Best event ever?
Senior Prank Day when I was a freshman.. and when I was on Fresh/Soph and beat Calvert Hall (rivals) for the MIAA Socer Championship.. first time Loyola beat Calvert Hall in 13 years..

20. Did you have a 'clique'?
nope.. serisouly, i was friends with everyone in that school.. no one had a problem with me and I didn't have a problem with anyone else.

21. Where was your Senior Prom?
Marriott in Hunt Valley (lame)

22. Did you have a "Max" like Zach, Kelly and Slater?
HAHAHA... no.. we had a fat old bald guy named Walt.. that, well, we just made fun of.

23. Admit it, were you popular?
people def knew me.. from soccer, "the cool car crowd." or because of my old band... but i wasn't super-star dude that all the ladies wanted and all the dudes wanted to be like

24. Who did you want to be just like?
no one.. i was fine being me.

25. What was the color of your yearbook?
Navy Blue with Gold

26. What were your school colors?
Blue and Gold

27. What was your school mascot?
the scariest fucking mascot in all the land... The Don! gr.. yeah, really, loyola's mascot is a mean looking spanish guy... but, whatever.. at least it wasn't a stupid bird, or lion, or some dumb usual mascot...

wow.. someone just said the best thing EVER to me:

"she" says: "hahaha... im watching a link channel show on a bunch of naked africans somewhere with weird wiener sticks...dont fucking ask, im still trying to figure it out. i miss your wiener stick..... ."

she always seems to cheer me up... i miss her.. she needs to move back.

So........

This Sunday, we'e playing with Torn Apart and Turmoil.. I'm already nervous. Oh yeah, Saturday, we're playing "Phil Phest." We got added as one of the "headlining bands" which is lame since now we have to play super late. I think wearing pajamas is a good idea. I'll set my shit up, outside the van, and just sleep until we have to play..

I've wanted to update this thing for awhile, BUT nothing interesting has happened... Here's some finer points of the past week or so (in no order, sorry)...

:: Went to Philly for the Turmoil Reunion show..
:::I got to hang out with Becky as well as one Mr. Tim Addicks... Sorry to Becky that I couldn't stay.. I'm an asshole. BUT, the show was fucking intense AND right before I left for the show, the Talking Head was confirmed for May 1st (Turmoi Show). I got home from Phill around 2 or 3am and talked to Drew for a bit. The Turmoil show came up and Drew danced around getting the band back together for another show. I called him on it and the next day, we got to work getting the dudes in TA to play the show.. ssiiiicccckkkk...

:: Jon gets Mono..

:: Isaac gets broken. Since Isaac broke his hand, we have to play as a 4 piece and figure out what to do about recording. I wouldn't want someone else doing his tracks, but we need something out before august...

:: Went to Bretts for a bon fire. It's was fun. I got to talk to Brett for a bit. I found out he's leaving for New Orleans in about a year.. which sucks.. I don't hang out with Brett that much, but it always sucks to see someone you've known for so many years move so far away (I've known Brett for about 10-11 years now). I also go to hang out with Sarah.

:: Found out Aaron is moving to Atlanta next year.. fucking Torn Apart kids moving away.. sucks..

:: Confirmed NORA to play May 1st. AWESOME...

:: NORA drops off bill for May 1st. SUCKS...

:: Applying to Villa Julie. It's super close to my house + they have better classes than CCBC. (I missed the cut off dates for applying to UMBC and Towson).. Hopefully, I'll get into VJ and take some courses to bring up my GPA.. then try for UMBC or the "Mystery College" (I'm still not sure yet about this college because of a few very large reasons)..


::Random::
I wish my sister still lived in San Diego. One thing I love most in this world is hanging out with my brother and sister. We hang out like close friends, but there's a sense of caring, protection, and understanding I don't get from anyone else. I love my family to death.

It's funny how I got mad at my Mom because it seemed like she hated my ex-girlfriend. Then, after "it" was all over, I find out what was one her mind and she was right. I talked to her about her feeling on Kelly (an ex-girlfriend/now good friend) who I was madly in love with.. even while i was dating someone for many years.. and eventually got married.. Kelly and I had gotten together right before she got married and I was told the following:
1. "You're the one that got away"
2. She waited for me for so long to break up with Jessie (my girl friend at the time), but just didn't see it happening... IF I HAD ONLY KNOWN THAT...
3. Kelly always imagined that the two of us were destined to get married (as well as other things)...
Anyway, my Mom had said how much she adored Kelly and she just seemed right for me... I feel like I made the biggest mistake of my life. I knew the feelings were there, I was just too afriad to do anythng about it.

People tell me I'm a good drummer, but i'm not so sure.. I know I don't suck, but sometimes I think I'm really sloppy or boring. I watch drummers these days and I wonder if I have my own style or because I learn from watching certain drummers, I'm just a reincarnation of them..

Lindsay needs to get over herself and tell people how she feels as well as thinking people hate her AND thinking she sucks/looks like poo. There, I said it. She's a great looking girl that's intelligent and has an awesome sense of humor. so.. SHUT UP.. You should just go for who you like. Stop being like me and not saying anything.. being someone that admires from afar and is too scared to say something...

It's about time for Colin to cut his hair.

I miss Isaac at practice.

There might be a coloring book with me in it.. poor children.

I need to sleep.

I need to hang out with people more.. seriously, call me.. 410.336.8592


that's enough..

amber makes me feel better. i'm mad she lives on the west coast.. some of you might know her as NYC girl.. at least Mitch knows who i'm talking about..


i think she gives the best advice + makes me feel way better about myself...


i can't wait till tour...

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in august, everything will be red (except for maybe maine and def alaska)...

last night i had a chance to do something that i don't usually get to do. i went to my favorite bar with a couple of friends, had a beer, and talked about random issues (mainly woman)...

i don't know why... the want for a girlfriend always comes and goes... but, lately, it's all i can think about.. not necessarily having a girlfriend, just a specific girl to hang out with and pal around with... there are very few girls that i can think of, but thoughts are somewhere else and feelings are somewhere else... which, is understandable.. bad timing on my part (as usual).

i think all this thinking about relationships, among other things, is really taking it's toll. i think i'm really making myself physically sick. i can't sleep. if/when i do fall asleep, it's 4am or 5am and then i've got to be up for class at 7am. i just go through the day, looking at girls and sizing them up.. as well as holding eye lids open and thinking how sick i feel.

i was told that i'm too nice for my own good, which i think is true. girls seem to want mean dudes these days and i just can't bring myself to be like that. now, don't get me wrong, if i don't like you or i really just care about you in that sort of way - i've got no problem being a sarcastic bastard... there you go, people... there's how you can tell if i'm love with you... if i'm a prick - friends all the way...

now, on to a quick side note..

there was something that happened between myself and "girl x".. i've heard certain info pertaining to the relationship of her and her ex when i came on to the scene... IF the info i was given is true.. i deeply appologize to Mr. Ex.. if not, grow the fuck up and stop telling lies. though i COMPLETELY inderstand what you went through, trust me, that's still no reason to act like a child... quite honestly, i don't see why Girl X would want to get back together with you after you tracked me down ONLINE and tried to tell me she'd ruin my life... THEN, when i didn't respond, you tried to tell me that "she has deseases" ....real fucking mature...

another random thought.. i want a girlfriend (picture me with a sad face)

turmoil is NOT my favorite band.. fuck you victor..